第十八章 心事
丁靈走??像?陣??季流?火車站相送??敢問她???久才?回??因??怕??太久?久??讓????容易相通?關係?又隨???消散?
丁靈走??丁媽總跟季流嘮嗑?
“??????讓她??學??她萬?懷孕?????”
“她?她懷孕??她?回??”季流歎?口???
“??確定??幾??辦事?”
“丁靈??辦事?”
“她知?什??”
“她學醫??肯定知????”
丁媽抱孫?切?常???誰?娃?今年?經?識字?又??誰?娃今年?經?爬???季流?體諒她??又?什?辦法?丁靈????學??兩?年???定?娃給她抱????????口??幫?丁靈把謊言編???
春?秋??季流?直給丁靈寫?信?丁靈?信??斷郵寄給???報?平安?磚廠依舊?運轉????年少???愛傻笑???季流記??教憨娃騎?行車??候?憨娃???學???腳踩???最踏實??等?結婚???學??騎?行車???己家???輛?季流問???傻笑????媳婦讓?騎????早?從磚廠回家?
“哎???傻?夥??惜??”廠??老噠噠??憨娃?總?唉聲歎??似乎??憨娃?感情?深?
活?????樣??????命眷顧?同???歎息??己?命運將??怎樣?明??否?今日?樣健康?活??
憨娃?命運成?????季流伐??段??掙?錢?????分?別?兩?工??和??樣??????分錢???憨娃???親戚?伐木主?因???事???兩家鬧????交??邊讓??兒???邊讓??錢給辦?事?
憨娃?家庭??????獨??????象失?孩??年邁父母??情????悲傷?何況??才娶?媳婦?才??孩??
?件事?壞?兩家??伐木主?邊?痛苦?堪?錢?掙???搭??親戚家??命?賠?錢?兩家將???老死?相往??
季流?直??內疚??本?應該?往???邊倒???和另???拉?住??倒向?憨娃?邊?季流????憨娃家?因?進?門口????家??給轟?????憨娃家?????事?本應該?????????????太精明?把危險?事交給?憨娃?
??辦法?事情?經?????論?什?????再回?事情原本?樣??所?季流???????沉默?選擇?忘記???選擇忘記??件事????忘記憨娃??愛傻笑???
??秋???雪?喜歡找季流??家?她似乎??玩伴?她??嫌甲林與鳳凰鎮遠?她常跑?跑??她經常騙她爺爺??她?鳳凰鎮物色男?????最終?拉?季流帶?她?玩?
??她??次???事重重?
“怎???”季流問她?
“?今???西崗?”?雪坐??
“西崗??遠??幹嘛?”季流問?
“????玩?”?雪??
“????午????遠??怕晚?回????”季流??
“?騎車?快?點?”?雪??
“?????事啊?”?雪?午??季流??見她笑??她????經常笑?
“??啊??丁媽?年?????邊?男??入贅???巧遇?”?雪??
“?長??漂亮??用擔??”季流又??“???騙???????事????找???總?興高采烈?讓?帶??玩?”
“??真煩???????”
“?????????????候??別?給?聽??”季流笑?????家???長?跟??妹?越?越親近?知?她??藏?住事????倆??塊?季流?像?受?她?感染?樣??話?總?肆?忌憚?
西崗??片?連山?從????位走???西北角?離?雪家最少?十?路?離季流家??十???此????經走??路??季流拚命?蹬?車???雪坐??邊?車座??
“????真?良?????除???????放鬆放鬆??別???????”?雪??
“????貪玩??己?跑???”季流??
“???次??找???”?雪?????
“?吧??什???????????苦往哪訴?”季流又?玩笑???“??????兩年?變?????爺爺??再??傻乎乎?吧?”
“?才傻乎乎??”?雪猶豫????又?“??知?董炮嗎?”
“怎??知??咱??騎?車???????”?於?輛車??季流?愛護?基本?每?騎?家????拿幹毛巾把它擦?遍?
“???坐牢??”?雪??
“坐牢??”季流詫異?問?
“?????因???”?雪黯????“?從?城市回???跟變?????樣???弄????鬼?鬼???聽?奶奶話?”?雪??扶?季流?腰??莫名抽???筋?又??“別????????找?玩??奶奶?許???把?奶奶推倒????奶奶?腦袋?剛?碰?門墩????花?死??”
“才???嗎?”
“嗯???久?”?雪眼睛通紅?又??“民警??謀殺??把董炮抓????董炮?父母?回?????家罵???次?????長????敢?門?”
“????幾??經常做夢?夢見董炮?奶奶?掐?脖?????把她害死??”?雪坐?車???突?摟?季流?腰哭????似乎??男??才??最??依靠?
??????件事??雪?刺激???她本????季流??提???見??本??似乎什?話??和???因????讓??放???雪?知??己???哥哥存??什??法??跟???塊確實?用害怕??東西??知???哥哥?保護她?
季流終於知?她????事??忙安慰她?“?又????錯???用害怕???用哭?等?段???帶??廟?買??光佛?戴??”
“???許反悔啊?”?雪擦擦眼淚??
“?反悔?”季流??
季流安慰??雪???免?董炮?點惋惜?????胖胖?男孩?年紀應該跟?雪差??????輩?應該算?毀??每??命運似乎??經?老?掌控????似乎???件該???事??管?富貴、貧窮????件事突兀?????或許???命??災難??和憨娃家?樣?
西崗??片山????秋季?????木?光禿禿????枝葉繁華??茂盛??????複蘇??盎?????片死寂?荒涼?季流和?雪?????像?進???區??????戶?家????砍柴?農夫?更???雪眼??巧遇?
“?????什?叫西崗???明明?山啊??應該叫西山嗎?”
傾訴完?董炮?家???事??雪??情似乎又?????她?話?變???
“?山??高?所??叫崗?山崗?”季流??
“??????啊?”
“?啊????什??玩????知????幹什??”
“?喜歡山?邊?”?雪??“住???應該???打擾???????煩惱???????????”
“每???????”季流踩?山腳?腐敗?落葉??
“咱??山頂?日落吧????日落?美?”
?雪?完?跑??快?季流?忙找?隱蔽???把車?鎖??追??她?
“咱??坐???或許???和咱??樣???晚霞?”
?雪??山頂指??????喘籲籲???
秋?瑟瑟?日落???片?際?染?血紅?整?山崗?變?金碧輝煌??雪坐?季流??邊???日落?她?臉???照耀?金燦燦?慢慢??她覺??殘餘?夕陽??她?夢???她抓?住?因??溜走?太快?
季流?和她?樣?????????奇觀??覺?每??日?日落?跟?每?反反複複??活?樣???????候????美麗?黃昏????候????
“???????憂?慮?????做?己??事該??啊?”?雪??
“??????束縛?或許????變?跟野獸?樣?”季流??
“???束縛?咱?????乖乖動物?”
“本質差??吧???動物??因?咱??活??”?
“???總??理?”
“???哥?”