第十七章 災難與喜慶
憨娃?模樣?什?變化???見??笑??裹??棉襖?季流問???孩?老婆怎?樣???傻笑?比??更厲害??季流???樣??知?????滿足?????笑?缺少??東西??像????豐富?
伐?用?鋸???長?木框拉鋸?鋸齒??????往??回往複?拉?農家伐???候?先用長繩??套住????杈?找?角度???往?邊歪?位置?????倆???邊拽?繩??
等伐木鋸?鋸進???定?深度??感覺???倒?樣???把伐木鋸抽?????用?木楔塞進鋸縫??塞?倒?邊?相?位置?塞進???再用?錘?錘???木楔所受????使鋸縫越?越????往?邊傾斜?隨?轟?倒??
伐???????程?季流??伐?????裝滿?車拖拉機???伐??累??粗?長???鋸成?節?節??兩?套?繩????插?木杠?????往車?抬????????邊推????段?重?把它抬???兩條腿??打顫?
??累?累??總比?家?邊閑???季流常常?樣??每???什?掙錢?其實?己???最清??像憨娃??孩??幹?活??比??年更賣?????別?????初??幼靈???跟??日??幼靈?母親?????活?奔??若???奔???活???團死泥?
??樣??幹?半月????本???平穩???年??????真????件事?讓丁媽給????伐??真??危險?季流倒???事??事??憨娃?
????活?百年????它???活物?當?把伐木鋸?鋸進?????它??感?疼痛???回?擺動?當?????吹??候?它?經?受控製?往?邊倒??
季流當?和另????拉?繩??憨娃?另?邊用斧?砍?枝????往??拉繩???邊倒?偏偏往憨娃?位置倒?季流????受控製??候???聲喊憨娃讓?趕緊跑??嘶喊???憨娃像?聽???聲音?樣?????己事?????妻兒嗎?季流流?淚??忘?掉憨娃最終聽??聲音??候??衝?傻傻?笑?
?倒???把憨娃淹???灰塵?????周圍?片寂靜?所??愣????敢向????敢相信??真???當寂靜???所???衝????憨娃?經?枝葉?呻吟?最終留給眾????難??傻笑?
??????犯?什?錯??讓?帝?懲罰??最終?把?吞噬???錯????錯??帝???錯??帝?公平????見?????????幸福?當???幸福??候???降?災難?讓??家支離破碎?讓?再重建?最終?讓?體?什???活?體?什??活??
活????份災難?重合?讓?變?疲憊?把???靈透支?或許??堅強?或許??墮落?
季流??腿處常?陣痛???知??什??候?始??憨娃?離??讓??全?疲憊????躺?搖椅??搖啊搖?搖啊搖???????此忘?什??丁媽健??丁靈???學?所????努??
“?把胡?刮刮??鎮??買件新衣裳?丁靈?快回???”丁媽??季流胡?拉碴??衣服?全?她打?補丁??擔?丁靈回??又?變化?
“??”
季流??年?變化???與?剛從北京回???候??判若兩??最重??忙?????打理?己?整???黑??圈??臉?剛毅?又增加?幾分成熟??息?
???兩????季流整理完?己?又把房?重新打掃?幾遍?丁靈?回??????午?騎??行車?接?丁靈?
丁靈?變化???她穿?流行?棉襖???挎??包???提?行李箱?她?????剪?長???像瀑布?她??眼睛??瓊鼻?薄嘴唇????候刻畫??明顯?季流?北京見?????錢??質??樣???化?妝?
“怎???認識???”
季流接?丁靈?行李箱傻笑????丁靈?她變??變?更美???讓丁靈騎車???邊????邊追??疑季流愛她????種愛?此刻讓?覺???吃??丁靈蹬車?蹬??快?????邊跑?追?雖?丁靈常給?微笑???怎?追?追????????直做?樣?夢?最終?把??夢稱??噩夢?
日思夜?????終於???季流非常?興奮??丁媽?籌辦?????快結?婚?親朋?友?????雪和?爺爺代表季家??????豬殺???切成?塊?燉成?菜???吃??滋?味?喝?紅光滿???直??晚??丁家??張燈結彩?
季流?喝??????長???碰?酒???碰?煙?煙和酒??貴?丁靈常?抽煙喝酒??體???所?????抽????喝???今??高興??真?高興??笑??整??所??喝????見?長輩?給?磕????????醉??其實???醉???感謝????給?????機??丁媽?高興??整??似乎她?重任完成???等?抱孫???
?晚?????眠夜?土坯房?西屋??季流布置?幹幹淨淨?棉?什?????新??丁靈坐?床沿?季流??意思?從懷?掏???戒指??戒指金燦燦??惜?銅??
“?????買??銅??”
“??給?買??????銅??”丁靈?從懷?掏????戒指??比季流???比???亮?
??洞房?????該???事?丁靈??讓季流使勁?搖床?似乎搖床??懷孕?樣?
“???事先??急?????學?總??讓?挺??肚???學吧??且???除??”丁靈紅?臉又??“讓媽聽聽????知?她早?抱外孫?
“嗯?”
季流?情??失落????法拒絕丁靈每???求?哪怕???晚?像???情?公牛???床?泄?
“難受嗎?”第??晚?丁靈笑眯眯???季流?
兩床???兩??窩?季流??深夜?像熱鍋??螞蟻?翻?覆?睡???
“???睡??吧?”季流覺??己吵?丁靈??
“?用?難受?????”丁靈??
“?難受?”季流連忙??
“??翻?覆?幹什??”丁靈問?
“???熱?”
“?冬???熱?”
季流長???從??經曆??事??北京跟?瑩同房??候??動?動?臉紅?常????規?矩??動?動求觀音老佛爺給?贖罪?
丁靈見季流??話?知????種敏感?事比較羞恥??她???喜歡?季流窘迫?樣??她???聽聽季流?怎?回答她?
“??????體熱?”季流?敢?丁靈?
“??算老實?”丁靈??
丁靈?句話包含?太????????季流?肉體?????靈??
“???喜歡??”
“從?從第?次記事?”
“??什??候?”
“???歲??候??媽讓?把?抱??親嘴????往?嘴?吐?口唾沫?”季流??意思???
“???喜歡??”丁靈驚訝???
“?媽當????才吃?糖??讓?嚐嚐甜?甜??”
“?怎???記???”
“??候?才??歲?”
“???事?”
“嗯????候????住????牆角?張?床?咱倆?睡??張床??”
“?越?越離譜??”丁靈捂?腦袋?相信?
“真????信問媽?媽知??”季流越?越高興?“??次?????讓??床??鑽?床底??哭???給踹????????媽給?打??頓???睡覺?老實?”
“??呢?”丁靈問?
“????學????怎?????家?再????????學??候???又????”季流??
“????知?????????什??????”丁靈又問?
“???知???越???????越??????”
“?腦袋?病?”丁靈又??“??記??件事??年????年級??????雨??肯定?記????接?????候?煩???淋?雨??邊跑??快?????邊追???掉進??封口?紅薯?窖???邊??水???????當????淹死??邊?????當??挺幸運???當???救??????像?把?抓??滿臉花?埋怨?追??”
“嗯??回?家??敢吭聲?跟媽?????己???摔??枝??”季流笑????“?當??怕?跟媽????追??掉進???”
“?幾年?受??少委屈??當??什??學校打架?”丁靈又??“??聽真話?”
“?又?????知???當?學習???”
“??聽真話?”丁靈知???瞎?????候獎狀全?貼?牆??她常和季流?比誰???
“?年???初??????媽背??袋?麥?坐?學校門口哭?”
“她哭什??”?
“??學??候?學費?湊齊?媽求???次?學校才同意?先???媽??背?麥?本?抵學費??學校?麥?太差??讓她重新?辦法?”季流又??“?????學校總務?兒?非常?舒服??和?打??架?”
丁靈默默?聽???吭聲????己?問?或許季流永遠??????吧?此刻她捉住?季流???緊緊?握????