第五十二章:掙紮 2
?少????己??活?淌??少讓?己舒??事情??己???需??少努??掙紮才?走?困境?又??少??掙紮?活??路?倒?再?爬?????活???泥潭???沼澤?懂??活??????翼翼?履薄冰??怕??????陷入?沼澤???法?拔?????數?並?知???己早??知?覺??活?泥淖???困?其?負重?行?越行越艱難?
每??城市????複雜?社?聚集體?魚龍混雜???城市?????染缸?羊城?樣?國際化??市更??此?農村???年輕??城市??活?片空??????城市?紛繁所迷惑?拚?命?融入??城市?又??其門?入?於??始交朋結友?認識??????成??江湖?每???閱曆??樣?閱曆越???帶動??越強??幫??始?帶???同?場所?接觸?同?事物?
因?窮怕??所?農村???孩??更容易虛榮?更?重錢?又?滿足於工廠每?月杯水車薪?工資?膽??????始鋌?走險?盜竊?搶劫?甚至販毒??樣?錢?快?比?己打工?班拿??錢???且更加容易??勞?獲?東西更具備吸引??馬鬃嶺?羊城打工???????接觸???東西??製?強?點??淺嚐輒止???深陷進???製?差?點?????條?走?黑?
星哥?羊城??候??跟???老鄉???外??世界總??此讓?流連忘返?男?女?寂寞成?堆??每???孤獨?糾纏????????知足??婚姻??男女更??樣?結婚???長??少?最?始?????候?激情和快樂???柴米油鹽?平淡?太??熬???樣?平淡?外?燈紅酒綠?誘惑?難?抵抗??
星哥??正常?男???抵抗??外?花花世界?誘惑?踏入歡樂場??始流連迷失?星嫂??敏感?女???快從蛛絲馬跡????星哥?異常?於?留??????星哥?外?廝混?兩???吵?架?鬧????交?最?星哥遠走滇南?星嫂獨?留?羊城?
星哥??常回羊城????星嫂???兩???見???吵架?星嫂覺?星哥做?事?法原諒?星哥覺?星嫂?理取鬧?爭執?幾年?????兩?分居?幾年?????始??候星哥知??己?錯誤?內????覺????星嫂??算吵架??讓?星嫂??盡量壓?脾?哄?她?漸漸???長??星哥?耐??完全磨?盡??於?回?羊城?兩??協議離婚??
兩??離婚???星哥把孩?爭取????放?老家讓?己爹媽帶???己遠走滇南??建築工?幹活?努??賺錢養活家????又找???年輕漂亮?女??兩??住?????倒?其樂融融???女????意??????????星哥??她?錯?死?塌??跟?????久女?懷孕??兩??回?老家領?結婚證?算?結?婚?星哥覺??己?經??婚????辦酒席?覺???意思?
?鎮?租??套房??讓女??鎮?住???把?兒?帶????鎮?讀書?讓女?帶???管給?煮煮飯洗洗衣服???星哥?己???????省城找?活幹??掙錢養活她????學?駕照?用?己?積蓄買??輛車??活幹??候??車回???老婆孩???
第??星嫂??溫婉?女???爭??鬧?文文靜靜??星哥?挺???所?星哥收?從??花花?思??己????外??老老實實?班掙錢?再加??己?第??兒??????肩??負擔更重??????思??花?酒???
????成熟????性?????像花?樣????花期?早?所??智成熟?早??????花期?晚?所??智成熟?晚???????智?成熟?於???己欲望?控製??掌控?己?欲望??才?算真正成熟???成熟????控製?己?欲望?情緒???控製?己??態?
星哥?始學?享受?己??活????更願意把?己??活??細致????常常?抽????陪?陪孩???雖??給孩???並??????做??己?所?及???醒悟???己曾經所經曆??東西???己?財富??更加懂?珍惜?己??所擁???知足???快樂?????知足??才?快樂???星哥學??知足?
?段??星哥?父親?病?場??部分?肺??經壞死?????理機???縣醫院治療??候?醫????兩次病危通知書?所?????老?撐??????段????星哥寸步?離?守候?病床??盡?盡??伺候?老?家??許???孩?成熟和??己?孝順?老?撐????漸漸??????又接回?老家?
星哥經曆???次波折?更加懂??活??易??更加懂??活?滋味??平淡?日???品味??活?味????種成長?星哥每?月??回??次?回馬鬃嶺???己?爹媽?又?鎮?待幾??陪陪?己?孩??雖?奔波勞累????樂?其????笑臉更????種笑????笑?跟?羊城尋歡作樂??候強顏歡笑???樣???
星哥?幸福???樣??活雖??累??作?男????樣?苦累???學??樂?其??當??男?學??擔當?學??挑??己?責任??才真正?成熟??星哥?算成熟?早????至少?成熟??更懂??活?什?樣???
?活???樣?掙紮?活??掙紮?走??己?囚籠??己?再用欲望?鎖鏈困鎖?己??候??己才?真正?快樂???其實???快樂?處????????忘記?怎樣?快樂?