第四十九章:楊六池的包穀粑 4

  ?活?給??????屬於?己??哪怕??候??東西?己並?????除?接受?推脫???????己??活?隨?所欲?拚命??成?己???樣????實??定?讓?己?願?償??給?己???阻??推?阻??需????精??所需??代價??定???願意承受??

  ?????限??命??限?折騰???論??設?事情???給?己??理由?折騰??己???????把情緒釋放???影響?邊???通常情況??己釋放情緒??候影響???最親近?????總希望?短暫??命?折騰??己???樣????己?預期往往?於?實????所????煩惱??源於?己?奢望?

  ?姑母?婆婆??矮??霸??女??性格太?剛烈???年代?農村婦女???????學?她?懂?什???理??知??己?怎樣?活才?痛快????活?並??讓她??痛快??總??樣?樣?瑣碎讓她煩惱??煩惱??暴躁?脾?暴躁???抑製?住?己?情緒??所?她??活全部?她?己?情緒?崩潰???姑母跟她婆婆?戰爭???樣?嘴仗?爆???持續?幾十年?從未?斷?

  ?姑母?婆婆?懂??情世故???藏?住話??什?話??????分任何場合???顧及????什?????候她?因????聽途??蛛絲馬跡?編排???臆??故事??處宣揚??樣??最容易遭記恨??邊???極度厭煩??避免??家庭?紛爭???渴望?己?活?圈???屬於?己?存?感?她??希望通??樣??式宣揚?己?存??讓?注意?她??聽她?故事?哪怕她?故事??數?源於?己?捏造?損害?別??任何東西她????乎?

  ?姑母原本??極其柔弱?女???婆婆?毒舌?漸漸學?捍衛?己?日積月累?磨煉?讓她?己?練?鐵齒銅牙?姑母?婆婆?兒?和男?相繼離世??性情變?更加乖張暴戾?常常???脾???己?漸漸老??獨?住?老屋???兒女願意接?贍養她?讓她??更加?平衡???姑母終究?善??給老?買?房?????己?家?搬???鎮??新房住??把老?帶??讓她?住?住城?樓房?

  老??新?環境?適應??段???倒?安靜??少????控製?住?己?嘴?漸漸?熟悉?????始故態複萌???次?年??候全家??聚集????老??回????????姑母帶?兩?女兒??幫孩??享?盡??倫?樂???老??始嘮叨??家?????吵?她?煩意亂?她?停?????????????家?雖?極度忍耐??架?住老?毒舌?攻擊?老?脾?????叫?己?奶奶滾回馬鬃嶺??把她掃??門??

  老??己把?己?東西收拾??流?淚回?馬鬃嶺老屋??病?場?又?????姑母?家?她糟踐盡??願意管她?老???兒?從省城回??接?老???省城治病???病???又接??己?省城?家??打算贍養老???料老???病??改???己?習性??省城依??此??兒???奈何?又把她送回?馬鬃嶺老家?

  她?己拖???偏癱???????老屋住???姑母定期給她送??活必須?東西?讓她???滅????晴朗??她???拄?拐杖??串門?逢??哭訴???己養?兩?兒?兩?女兒??老???給她養老?她意識???己?錯誤?哪??或者她?直??認??己?錯誤?亦或者她知??己?錯誤??江山易改本性難移?

  ??悲哀往往???此?迷茫??知??己活???什??始終找???己?位置?哪?????味?照??己?喜??活??顧及?邊?任何??把?己推入萬丈深淵???知?每?????私??????克製?己??私??????克製?己?讓?己所???私暴露???隨它?刺傷?邊???往往刺傷????己最親近??????私???傳染???管?任何????管任何圈?????????私???周圍??同樣??私???圈???紛爭?斷????和諧?

  ?姑母?年紀漸漸????性格?始變?乖戾???始嘮叨???且??常?家和粵省??奔波?常年住?粵省?隨?年紀?增???體?漸漸?降???舅???性格孤僻????喜歡跟??話???話?直戳戳????傷???愛炫耀?炫耀?己?女兒給??衣服??表?鞋??所??舅?越加孤立?親戚故舊?願意跟?打交??因??知??怎?回事??所???炫耀?別??眼??文?值???依舊?此?

  ?最??缺點???知??己?別??眼??什?樣???往往又??感覺極???願意?反省?己?讓?越加厭煩????姑母把老??兩?孩??帶回?老家??鎮?帶?兩?孩??學??己?????家?呆???舅?己?找??份工作?掙點?花錢?己用度???班??候?獨????坐?公交車?處溜達???少?親戚家?????己?廣場?溜達??處走走?????知???孤獨???哪???像?詩??昂???常常習慣性?揚揚??讓??????腕??表??

  ?幾?表姐?網絡??姑母?病?住院???打?電話???她??濕病導致雙腿腫??辦法走路???醫院檢查??什?病???每?輸液?再?幾?打電話??候?經?院回家??她??輩??住?醫院????老????醫院住幾???笑????住幾????再??毛病?????姑母??倒??呐?

  掛電話??候隱約聽?她跟?邊???“蠻??幾??打?兩?電話?問?????家??啊?”?沉默??久?