106、那時
鱗次櫛比?高樓?廈躍?入目?街??車輛?回穿梭??路兩旁?行??色匆匆?
熙攘??息充斥?街??肉眼??見?每?角落?喧鬧?氛圍?處彌漫?
“??…北京?”
莫羽????震動?
眼???座城市?再熟悉????曾????活??年??城市留給???除?美??更??卻?痛苦?
遠處?座仿佛?直入雲霄?高樓???國貿?廈????國貿附近??鐵站?口處?
“?什??”
??往??息??群?嗅?城市?獨??冰冷銅臭?莫羽眉?緊鎖?臉色變???難??
“?明明進?通?塔??什???????難??幻境?”
?????莫羽??迅速沉入意識空??“洛羽????”
??低喝??果?正常?候?洛羽定??回應?????石沉?海毫?反應?
“怎?回事?洛羽呢?”莫羽眉毛緊緊擰?????
?算?幻境??絕???把洛羽給弄丟?因?洛羽和?本??????
正當?思考究竟?哪???問題?突??肩膀??拍????莫羽立刻轉??拳?跟?握緊?
“嗨?同學?????××?學報??新?嗎?”
聽聲音??熟悉?莫羽?禁疑惑??當?轉???清???瞬???整??直接?傻??原??
“笑笑?”
站??????赫?正?蘇笑?
蘇笑穿???校服?胸口位置印?‘××?學’?字樣???幹淨利落?短?洋溢?青春蓬勃?朝??笑??候嘴唇?翹笑容暖????
“怎???”
“咦??怎?知??名字????哪見?嗎?”蘇笑?奇?歪??仔細打量??番?卻?????哪見??
?瞬??莫羽?眼淚?受控製?流????抽泣??體忍?住微微顫抖?
“哎同學?怎????怎?哭?呀?”
蘇笑緊張?湊?????候其??似乎察覺??邊?情況?幾名和蘇笑穿?同樣校服?年輕女孩相繼??查?究竟?
“??什?事??”
“???知?????校服和???樣?覺??新?????給?指路?結果???????名字????哭??”
“???經病吧?”?女同學秀眉輕蹙?“走笑笑?咱??理????外邊壞????別???????”
“???認識?呀?”
“認識?算什?理由?誰知????哪?紈絝?弟?利用??善良故意接近??快走吧?”
“????覺???像壞?啊??且誰????聊接近???又?錢?”
“???錢?錢?問題?”
她??話?聲音????莫羽??聽清????????終於知???怎?回事??
???北京???第?次離家?學??????????鐵站口??第?次遇見?蘇笑?
剛剛幾?女孩??話?和記憶???模?樣???當?莫羽?表???於冷漠??番話她??當?????次?卻???種?式?
“莊周夢蝶?究竟?莊周?夢?化作?蝴蝶???蝴蝶蘇醒?變成?莊周?嗬嗬…嗬嗬嗬…”
??刻?莫羽分?清真假?辨?清虛實?或者?????把?切??太清??
“??記憶絕???假????確經曆??次???死?進入罪惡空???????切???真實??”
?腕??罪惡?證?見??洛羽?消失??蘇笑?卻????
“??關?幻境?通?喚醒?底最純粹?感情和記憶??達?麻痹意誌?效果??果??衝破?????永遠?迷失?回憶當??”
????莫羽????由???股悲傷和?奈?
盡管????蘇笑???知??真正?蘇笑此???罪惡空?等???
??蘇笑?臉擔憂?表情?莫羽??暖暖?完全??於本????伸????從蘇笑???輕輕撫??
“哎?幹什??”
誰?????莫羽?突?伸??蘇笑?嚇??跳?她旁邊?女孩更?鳳顏?怒?
“臭流氓?警告?別亂?????北京?信?信?馬?報警抓??”
“笑笑??放????定?救??哪怕拚???命?”
“?經病?笑笑走?咱?離?種?遠點?”
兩?女孩?由分??拖?蘇笑離??莫羽始終深情?凝望?她?蘇笑??直????
“再見?記憶?盡管?????兒?卻??讓?見??最初?她?謝??幻境?”
低?呢喃片刻?突??莫羽腳??動朝?遠處??橋衝????當?站??橋?央???蘇笑????????顆?徹底融化?
?橋??車輛飛馳?莫羽再?猶豫?越?護欄?躍???
“幻境?給?破吧?”
…………
??????奇怪?東西?當??感受?煎熬?往往??度日?年?感覺??當沉浸?喜歡?事物??或者和喜歡???????輩?似乎???才?秒?
?昏迷???更感受?????流逝??
??知???久?莫羽?意識終於漸漸恢複??????剛剛恢複知覺?瞬??全???立刻向?腦傳遞?劇痛?訊息?
強烈?痛感??太快?太濃??至於莫羽差點?忍住??慘叫?
“怎?回事??什????疼??幻境??遺症嗎?”
忍?痛??睜??眼睛?入眼?卻???雪???花板?鼻??跟?嗅???股淡淡?消毒水?味?
“??哪兒?”
掙紮???坐???誰知?動?全?立刻像??撕裂?般襲?劇痛?
“哎別動??????傷呢?”
熟悉?聲音入耳?莫羽艱難?扭???見蘇笑正坐?距離??遠處??張椅???
“?記??嗎????感覺?體哪??舒服?餓?餓????吃東西?”
蘇笑緊張?問??臉紅撲撲?兩??搓?衣角?知該怎?往???
“??照顧?病???知??注意什??哎?????家?呢??幫?通知???照顧?吧?”
?奇怪??似乎????蘇笑?莫羽???回瞬?平靜???
“??哪兒?”
“醫院呀?”
“?怎???醫院?”
“十????從?橋?跳???又?路??汽車???碾???????記??嗎?”
“十????橋?”莫羽?露震容?“???脫離幻境?”
?瞬???數思緒?始從?腦?湧??莫羽第?次感覺腦??夠用??
“??底?什?情況??殺??破除幻境?”
通常?幻境????產?迷惑效果??果?堅定信念?幻境當??攻?破?
莫羽猜測通?塔?幻境?讓?沉溺其??法?拔?所?果斷?用?殺?衝破?誰知結果根本??????樣?
“??記憶絕?????問題?罪惡?城?真??通?塔??真???究竟?怎??回事?”
視線牢牢鎖定蘇笑?莫羽?從她????端倪??惜??濟於事?
“?定?哪??問題??否則幻境??破???”
莫羽重新躺??眉?緊鎖?腦飛快轉動?蘇笑見狀???打擾?拿?放?桌???書?????
兩?誰??再?話?病房恢複安靜???牆??掛鍾‘滴答?滴答’??輕輕跳動?
????兒???敲門?蘇笑放?書抬??房門??推??兩?年輕女孩提?東西走?進??
莫羽???眼??????和蘇笑?????兩?女孩?
“妍妍姐?姍姍??醒??”
“?醒??什??候醒??”於?妍?奇?
“?剛才???久?”
“太???終於?解放??”楊姍高興?跳????扭?瞪?眼莫羽?“喂?????管??護工費????給?墊付?醫藥費怎?算????既??醒???????照顧???學校??課??禮拜???段??笑笑?直?請假??真??什??緊事?算??關鍵跟?非親非故???懂?意思吧?”
楊姍?話?聽見????????正?考慮怎?擺脫幻境??於??壓根??放????
??莫羽?副表情?楊姍頓?急??“喂??跟??話呢聽見????知?光?住院?段??花??少錢嗎??算?術費??足足?萬?趕緊打電話讓?家????”
“??家??”莫羽冷冷?瞥?她?眼???楊姍火?更???
“孤兒???啊??算?孤兒住院??拿錢??當醫院?福利機構啊?”
“姍姍別??種話??傷?呐?”蘇笑?意勸??
楊姍火?當??指?莫羽叫??“傷??更傷??????呢?笑笑???善?知???????事犯傻啊?當??街???????管?憑什????收拾爛攤??直接讓?死?????省?糟蹋???錢?”
“楊姍少?兩句?”於?妍??????聲製止?楊姍?才?呼呼?閉嘴?
突??她??見莫羽咬牙硬撐?坐?????????簡單?動作???額???經沁??細密?汗?
“哎????動?醫???全??骨???損傷?內髒?受??嚴重?波及??活??經?最??結果??最?碼??修養半年才?恢複?”
“放??”莫羽用?朝她擠???笑容?“??己?情況?清?????斷?斷腳??問題?”
???莫羽又?始扭動肩膀???支撐?己站???卻????體?虛弱完全超?????象?渾?使??勁兒????動??股鑽??劇痛?始衝擊意識?
才簡單?動?幾????眼???始冒金星?兩側太陽穴‘嗡嗡’?震?意識甚至?快?維持?住清醒?
?奈???重新躺??
病房再度陷入死寂?誰???話?????兒???於?妍忍?住先?口?“?????知????候???話?太合適?????知??????學???次?住院花??少錢?笑笑?敢告訴家??所?錢????幾?姐妹給湊??????????點??少給?點吧?”
“??包嗎?”莫羽突??問?
???愣?蘇笑趕緊回答?“???當??背???包????包?染?太?血???把???東西?拿????”
“?關係?”莫羽點點??至少記憶??錯?“????見?份證和銀行卡?”
“???嗎?”
蘇笑從床?櫃?抽屜?拿??張銀行卡?莫羽瞥??眼輕輕點??“?????密碼???1?卡??錢足夠????幾???銷???再從??額外取?點辛苦費?????該走?走吧?”
“?話??真響????副窮酸相?卡???幾塊錢?”楊姍冷冰冰?嘲諷?
“錢????百萬?????夠嗎?”莫羽?點煩??女孩???趕緊把她?打?走?安?思考接???事?
“?百萬?”楊姍愕??完全???莫羽?樣???其貌?揚??居?隨?揣??百萬?難????種富家貴公??
?思?活?楊姍眼珠?始亂轉??惜當她?見蘇笑??立刻?打消???念??
“算?吧??別?撈??處再給惹??麻煩?”
隨??楊姍和於?妍外?取錢?順帶?又給醫院交??筆住院費?至於辛苦費??於?妍?製止???拿??
??????果?再??????她?走??用莫羽?錢專門請??位護工?照顧???莫羽???活活餓死??
???水?光陰似箭??眨眼?距離莫羽恢複意識?經??整整十??此?????體終於恢複??點??碼?勉強?????
???午?護工伺候?吃完飯?離??莫羽躺?病床??緒淩亂?
“?殺絕??破幻境?尤其???經?透?幻境?本質?唯??問題?????次??橋太低?導致???死掉??次?找?高點?樓層?”