彼岸 3
?光安靜?????幾??其實具體?少??L??清??因???????和黑夜?樣?分別?????基本???致?作息???特別??海捕魚??????????默認?????行動?
每??女孩?帶???海邊漫步?海?總?把她烏黑?秀?吹?淩亂?於?她????伸?整理?己????她?動作?輕?又??????她突?回????露?使?感覺溫暖?笑容?????笑容?總?忍?住走??擁抱她??????清晰?聽?她??跳????己??跳?撲通撲通?
L希望?樣??光??直持續??????幾??????女孩臉?又?????憂鬱?她??“塔西木??從?從?海回????????聽??喊??名字?”
“?……”L?知?什???
“其實?根本???塔西木?????”
L低????忍??她?
她拿?掛??胸???樣東西?傷??問??“??非常珍稀?海螺??知???什??候送??嗎?”
“什??候?”L抬眼?她?知??己??法逃避?
“?真??記??”
“?記?????”
“???年????晴???????次晴?送????怎????記??”
?呆呆??她?語?低低???“?失??記憶?”
“??何?早跟???”
“因?……”
女孩?眼眶?經濕潤?“因??根本??謊?”
“?走????再見???永遠???再見???”她?語??堅決?眼淚?從臉頰簌簌滑落???
L什?????轉?默默離????內?愧疚?因???確隱瞞???事情????名女孩真??花月嗎?又或者?花月跟夕映真?同???嗎?明明記憶?經?改變??明明?經??同????仿佛?世與今??
美夢總?短暫????它?經破碎???女孩??花月?????塔西木???底?怎樣做?
雪花灑落????????肩膀??沿?海岸走??遠?路??達????己??知????????坐??塊巨??石????凝視????片?邊?海?由於??陽光??片海?跟?空?樣漆黑?
“塔西木?”???影???????喊??名字??抬?????老漁夫?
“???跟????海捕魚?”老漁夫又??
L猶豫????緩緩吐???字?“??”???跟?老漁夫??船????知??己?什??答應?????害怕孤單?非常害怕?因????塔西木???記憶???知??哪????又?什?朋友?仿佛整?世界?拋棄???
“塔西木??臉色????差?”老漁夫揚??帆?
“???”
“??困惑什??”
“????切?”
“?曾經?見??女孩?她每?坐?渡口???等待她?情???坐?????每??此?等?整整??月????終於回???”老漁夫緩緩??目光柔和?“?知?????幸運????擁??比別????”
L怔住??海?吹拂???臉???毫?感覺??種至真至純?愛??存?於少年?代????雖???少年?模樣??????經老?????感受??種愛嗎???聽?老漁夫?話??隱隱約約感受????????記憶??女孩??等待?短短幾???????她?經等?整整??月?
??又?何呢??並??塔西木??並????本該??幸福???
海?吹刮船帆?把船推進??海深處?L回????經?夠??整座島?輪廓?島??光??木呈??片幽藍?光澤?仿佛?座巨??燈塔?
“塔西木??知??父親?死讓??傷????必須振作????知?嗎???年輕??走?路??長?”老漁夫收住?帆?把漁網撒?海??
L??老漁夫勤勞?背影??底憂傷彌漫?“老爺爺?其實?並??塔西木?”
老漁夫愣????回????眼?驚詫?“???誰?”
“另????”
“?真???塔西木?”老漁夫仍??敢相信?
“????”
“??記???誰嗎?”
“?記??”
“?曾經?島???嗎?”
“???”
“????哪??”
“另??世界?”
“?早該?????????海??活??月?”老漁夫?情頹靡?“塔西木??憐?孩??”
“???何才?離????”
“????辦法?”
“什?辦法?”
“死?”老漁夫慈祥?臉忽?變?又冷又僵硬??跌跌撞撞?撲向L?掐住L?脖??“???死?????離??”
L實?????善良?老漁夫?做??種反應??眼睛睜?????表情?乎意料?平靜?仿佛?經?等待死亡??什?呢?既???世界並?屬於???又眷戀什?呢?忽???腦海?閃???又??影??夕映?臉?花月?臉?女孩?臉??將永遠失?她?她??世與今??
L死??巫師贏???本???巫師??場陰謀????什???什??忽?又覺???甘??巫師???????次機??至真至純?愛?夠喚醒花月?記憶?她?回???邊???法再次失?她???何承受???
“????掙紮???讓?安靜?死??”老漁夫眼?露?使?毛骨悚??寒光????仍舊緊緊掐住L?脖??L?覺眼??景物?片模糊??將?窒息?死???並??死???始掙紮?老漁夫畢竟老?????限??快??掙脫???又意外?把老漁夫推??水?
“??該掙紮???應該死??應該回?屬於??世界?”老漁夫?聲音既嘶啞又難???拍打?水??伸??抓?條船??奈怎??抓?穩???確老??
“??????死?”L平靜????害怕?己死?陷入???未知?夢境????再?見????見??????
“?什??”
“??必須??做?事情?”
“什?事情?”
L??回答???知?怎?解釋?當????跟老漁夫??????夢??算????老漁夫???相信?即使?相信?又??何?畢竟??經老????遲暮??遲早??接受命運??
“?知?嗎??所剩????經????”老漁夫歎??
“?什??”
“?快???明???”
L???把?伸?老漁夫???老漁夫露??吃驚?表情?“?明明知??剛剛??殺死????何?救??”
“因??需???幫助?”L淡淡???
老漁夫抓住?L???冷冷?目光又變?柔和?“??確需??”
“?什????所剩????經???”L疑惑???老漁夫?
“???死????遊?占據????體????複活???變成?另?????????命持續???久?”老漁夫緩緩??煤油燈?光閃爍??滄桑?臉??使???話?變??秘?飄忽?
L???己本?????色?蝴蝶?難??蝴蝶????遊??應該??樣???記??己??廟???經?火燒死?????什??燒死?呢???底做?什?錯事?
“具體??久?”L問??
“十???”
“十????呢?”
“?最???知??”老漁夫??色變??難??“?管怎樣?????並???種邪惡???希嘉???女孩??懇求???傷害她?”
“永遠??做傷害她?事情?知?嗎?”老漁夫強調??
“希嘉??女孩叫希嘉?”
“???”
雪花?海?飄揚?消融?海水???片海???冷???靜??邊???雪?聲音??及?片?邊?黑暗?黑暗??船??盞煤油燈?光虛虛?飄忽?L安靜????燈光?沉默?語????什?呢?
老漁夫從懷?掏??壺酒?悶悶喝?幾口?????目光?向L?“年輕??????喝?口?”
L愣????伸?接?酒壺?抬?喝??口??苦??苦?酒?“??什?酒?”?問??
“藤酒?”老漁夫拿回酒壺?“藤??枝幹??蘊含豐富?汁液???汁液??做酒?”
“?喝???什?味??”老漁夫又問?
“?苦?”
“??因?????苦?”老漁夫緩緩??“?種酒跟藤??樣??施?巫術??情愉快??喝?覺?甘甜?憂愁??喝?則覺?苦?”
L苦苦笑?笑??世?竟??種酒??怎???錯??於??又問漁夫?“???再喝幾口嗎?”
漁夫?臉詫異?“明明知?苦????喝嗎?”
“???”
漁夫把酒壺又遞???“?????????古怪???????比???難?捉摸?”
“?嗎?”L抬?猛喝?幾口酒??苦?酒?“?惜?酒卻??讓?醉?”
“??醉?”
“???”
“喝醉??總??醒??既?知??醒?又何必醉呢?”
L頓????緩緩??“活???總??死??既?知??死?又何必活??”
老漁夫聽完?禁笑???色既慈祥又迷離?
“??知??必須?做?事情?什???????允許失?記憶???存???果??祭司??????命令?把?燒死??”
“?祭司?”
“夜光島??座?島???集??活??????????相當於??村莊??祭司????村莊?村長?”
“?該怎?做?”
“假裝???塔西木??且???????”
“??並???????解塔西木????”
“????言行跟??相似????缺少????記憶?”
“??告訴?嗎?”
“???告訴??切?????答應???條件?”
“什?條件?”
“?管??什?事情?永遠??傷害她???傷害希嘉???做?嗎?”
“??定?做??”?
“??????告訴?塔西木????塔西木……”老漁夫?目光又變?迷離???聲音低緩?縹緲?淺淺?煤油燈光映??皺紋縱橫?臉??
??知???久??才把塔西木???講完??述???候??同講??故事?每??畫??每??細節??怎?知???此清??