第十二章 離家遠走
??知??睡夢?昏昏沉沉??久?忽?耳邊響??陣咿咿呀呀?笙和嗩呐聲?參兒打??哆嗦?醒????恍惚?睜?雙眼??始審視?己?位置?????己正躺?西邊?房??炕??
“?老板???算?醒?呦喂??咱????走哇?”???穿麻衣?操??口??西北?言?老女??捏???條?色??絹兒?炕沿邊兒用高低?伏?聲調??參兒吆喝?
“?……?老板……?”
“??哇??老板??奶奶包?俺?整?班??幫?給??家?老板送行?????棺材?抬?????等??扛?招?幡兒?路啦?”老女?見參兒動作遲慢?幹脆把?絹兒往腰??別????把參兒從炕?揪撤?????“哎呀??????賺?賺?戶?家?錢呢??老奶奶??真?闊綽??整?班??給包?????排?兒????”
“什?招?幡??奶奶和?姑呢?”參兒見?老女???急??己??緊張????邊穿鞋??邊從炕?把衣服拉??給?己套??
“??????事兒啊????懂???甚??跟?做甚??咯?拿???家?錢?管保流程給?走?敞敞亮亮?順順當當??”老女?捐?卷袖口繼續?參兒?“??家??兒??招?幡兒啊?照理兒?????扛??麻溜點兒???熱鬧?和?奶奶和?姑??外?兒等?呢?老娘??警告??老娘??按??收費????外邊兒等??趕緊???”老女??甩?絹兒?索性推門便????
推?房門????院?左邊?排?拿?鑔和鑼?右邊?排?拿?笙和嗩呐???跟?十??打扮?臉?花花??站?兩口棺材??角等?抬棺?搖曳?老女?捏???絹兒扯?嗓??回??群?穿梭吆喝?“快點兒?快點兒??準備?????????辰?再跟??啥?老娘??負責?”
參兒甚??奇?家??經窮?叮當響??老奶奶哪??錢請?????
“?????把?柳苗抱?????兒咱????栽?墳??”
老女?拿??苗??????柳苗送進參兒懷??柳條??綁?幾片兒劉錦慈和?春秋衣服?破布?興許怕參兒拿?動???刻意選?????????趁??
“?吧?跟?拿?絹兒??位仙姑??走棺材最??兒?”奶奶拄?拐杖站?正房?台階?向參兒揮??
“別???走??走??”仙姑督促??
參兒回???佇立?台階??奶奶?剛準備?口問奶奶???????結果??老女?仙姑推?棺材???
“????鑼?打???音樂??啊?抬棺?走?走??”仙姑擺?擺??讓幾?抬棺材?把棺材抬???
“停?”
?眾?才走?幾步?從??邊?傳??聲聲喊停?喊?正?老奶奶?
?見她?步?步?拄?拐?鏗鏘???邁?步?走?棺材???倒??碗?酒放?棺材頂????回??仙姑擺??讓???勢??“???喊?”
眾??????反應????愣?原??
“愣?幹什???????喊?花錢讓??辦事兒??辦?????影響???家?門?兒?????家?臉???讓??給丟咯??給?抬穩嘍?棺材??酒灑???誰?別?拿錢?”奶奶目光炯炯????完便合??幾乎?經掉完牙齒?嘴?轉?????顧??走?參兒邊兒?停????
仙姑甩??袖???脾??走??邊兒??????老太太???村??老?婆??家?敬??分?愛喊?喊唄?反正錢?經拿???省事兒?
“?靈?……”
隨?奶奶?聲雄渾???號?聲回蕩?眾?顯????老奶奶?感染?震撼??所???全?貫注??做??己?事情?儀仗隊?序??步?步抬?棺材??院??難??象???材佝僂滿臉壽斑?老??居???此渾厚?底??
?旁??姑?????阻止老奶奶??概?她?解老奶奶?性???活?張皮??活?口??
“咱???慌??咱腳底??跟????東倒西歪??棺?顧???棺左顧右?????給?長腰??長腰??給??順?……”
號????驚?動???陣?陣接連?斷?號?聲伴?嗩呐笙鑔等聲音??趟?殯讓全村????足?眼睛??????見????陣仗??殯?更??知??眼???花甲老??哪??????精???
“?邊?土坑啊?腳??留?啊?兩背齊斌龍?萬重?壓肩啊……”
漫??黃色紙錢和雪花?齊飛?每?條經??村??路?鏗鏘???號?聲指引?抬棺??步?步?跨?坑?和土坡?號?越喊??由???眾?哭?越凶????越??臉?哭?淚花?溢??骨??卻透??種??抗拒??量??概????千古???每???底深處?屈?羈??吧?
參兒抱??苗?柳苗?和爸爸媽媽????日???幕幕?眼?劃??又消散???樣??趟?殯??概走????????隊????挖??墳??靠????號?和?行樸實?壯漢?總算將兩位離世??安頓????山包堆???參兒?把?棵柳??栽種??墳??
“送?程又?程條條?路往?行?金童玉女?引路?保佑善?往西行?”奶奶坐?柳?邊兒???邊給?遞燒紙??邊嘴?念叨??
“參兒啊??給?柳?刻?參字???????????”?姑?完?拿??刀?柳皮?刻???正正?參字???保佑它長成參?????保佑?參兒?長命百歲?
?殯??幫忙???陸陸續續??散???最???剩?參兒??姑和奶奶????墳?久久??離??誰??再?話????靜靜?盯?墳????許久?
“??長??
奶奶回???用她?張長滿壽斑?臉??打?參兒?欲言又止?良久?奶奶??“恩???該長???把?爸給??留?書???????長??幹什???幹點什??吧?”
“走吧?跟?姑?城?念書?”?姑臉色?變??改剛才?陰沉?笑????
“男??該????該留?留?別讓?罵???忙??回?????行?”奶奶拄?拐棍站????步?步?往回走?
參兒嗯??聲?深吸??口??回?????姑?張笑臉??淡淡?笑????久違?笑?趁?冬日散落?雪??光?舒服????
???視??眼???齊趕?????左?右??姑??挽?老奶奶?胳膊?參兒則??拉?老奶奶???
“等進?城???姑帶??吃魚香肉絲?”?姑邊笑邊??
“?啊????吃??種魚呢??姑給吃??吃??肯定??吃?”
?行???沿?撒?紙錢?路?朝?家??向走??
傍晚??姑做??條給?夥兒吃?照舊?雞蛋??給??先參????段??長久?????第?件?讓?先參???笑?聲?事情??先參???年紀?經曆?太?太???該抽???休息休息??當晚??先參睡??香?雖??再見?爸爸媽媽????奶奶和?姑給?關?和愛?讓?己?暖??更?信?堅強勇敢?活???
第???早??姑拉??先參和奶奶告別?奶奶???副?事兒??樣?站??????眼睛卻?直????????行車?視線盡?消失才回?屋??
“?姑?城?真??????比村????”參兒坐????行車??座?向?探??問?
“?啊?城??飯菜??吃???且啊?城?幹什???便?城????打扮???????話又?聽?”??城??樣???姑蹬????行車?腳越?越?勁兒?眼睛?直眨?從她?眼睛??????她?城市?活?熱愛和向往?
“?姑父呢???做什??啊????城??吧?”參兒繼續問?
“?知???跟?講????許提??聽????愛死?哪兒??死?哪兒??跟??點兒關係????”?姑眼睛??光?突?暗淡?許??眉??顯??沉??????剛才?種激動??情?
見?姑突????參兒??再繼續追問?深吸??口??抓緊?行車?車座?向左右兩邊??景?
硬邦邦?泥土路和?邊廢棄?舊房?漸漸?變成????緊挨????平房?慢慢??建築再變化??棟棟?層樓??樓房?土路??始變成柏油路?行?漸漸???始?????路???????村??少見??輪汽車??柏油路???回回?駛??整?從村??城???像????雪洗??遍?所?東西?變?新????新??活??從???始?吧?????陌?????呼吸?城市??空??參兒??奶奶?話???讀書?
?約騎?兩???????行車挺???棟?房???
參兒抬????棟房???????樓??姑??叫別墅?
?姑拿鑰匙把門打??參兒推門進??剛進??步抬???整???傻眼??富麗堂皇?裝修?格?參兒從未見???包括?村???戶?家裝修?比?????光溜溜??理石?板?旋轉???紅木樓梯?長長?餐桌?擺放???散散?奇形怪狀?精致?餐具??姑???西??格?裝飾?參兒並?知?什?西??格??知?眼????切全?太美輪美奐???像??做夢?樣?昨???廖??煙????今??????城堡?
“????樓???”?姑???旋轉?紅木樓梯?指?????屋?讓參兒????
參兒?階?階?走?樓梯?朝??姑指??向?????????凹進??玻璃?屋???姑???叫窗?叫做飄窗?????房??歸參兒??
參兒爬??飄窗?往玻璃?哈??口??擦?擦?透?鏡?向望向窗外??片片??雪花飄蕩?車水馬龍?柏油路???路兩旁?排排高高?樓房?字排??熙熙攘攘??群?馬路兩邊?回穿梭???拉??巷??賣糖炒栗???賣豆漿油條??賣焙?羊雜碎??每???熱情?熱火朝??處處?充斥?欣欣向榮朝?蓬勃?城市?息??己新??活??從今??正式?始??參兒???坐?飄窗????曆曆?目??往??比眼?????盡管?己年紀?????畢竟經曆????成長???候?定決?成????夠保護別?????
參兒?滴答滴答?西洋鍾從遊離?思緒?拽????回?????姑?經?樓??廚房??做飯菜??己依舊像劉姥姥進?觀園?樣?走走停停????兒?把除??姑緊閉????屋?外?房??逛??遍?
“快??吃飯????房??算???家???慢慢兒??”?姑扯?嗓?衝樓?喊?催促參兒快??吃飯?
參兒撐?樓梯扶??跳?坐?順?盤旋?樓梯滑???????瀟灑??滑並?????完美?結束?參兒重重?摔???屁墩??理石?板??捂?屁股???站????嗷嗷慘叫??幫正把飯菜端?餐桌??姑???又??又?笑?搖搖?嘴??念叨?“?真???孩??”
“??吃塊雞屁股??娘告訴?????吃哪兒補哪兒?”?姑笑?把?塊雞屁股夾?參兒?碗??
“?才??吃雞屁股???吃炒雞蛋?”參兒?嘴唇咬??嘴唇?眼睛瞪?圓圓??盯??盤?己最愛吃?西紅柿炒雞蛋?
“哈哈?逗???雞屁股?吃???吃?塊魚?????姑家??別作假??吃什??吃什???做什??做什??當?己家?樣?”?姑?邊夾??塊魚放?參兒?碗??邊笑哈哈???
“恩?知???謝謝?姑???什?親????和奶奶???世???最????”參兒感恩?點?點???始狼吞虎咽?吃飯?
?姑???參兒???若所思?盯?掛?牆???把青色?長劍?眉?微微?皺?皺?
吃?午飯?聽?姑?話?床?休息??兒?醒????姑讓?己把奶奶給??本書?拿??????告訴?己學習??法?
參兒取?剪刀?把奶奶縫??口???翼翼?剪??從??掏????本書?《理?》、《陰陽》和《驚鴻》?
“參兒??先???骨比別?弱?《陰陽》和《驚鴻》兩本書???先?用?????先從《理?》???常言???活?張皮??活?口???聚則???散則亡??分?先?精?、水穀精?和??清??先?精??受於父母；水穀精??汲取於食；??清??源於???水穀精?和??清??稱????????種?互相結合、作用??通?則?達?”?姑???參兒?反應??顧??叨叨?簡單講???關於《理?》?東西?
回?????姑低??坐??旁?參兒?參兒正呆呆????己?????兒?突?從嘴?冒??句?“?姑?什?……??聚則???散則亡啊?”
?姑放????書??臉苦笑?搖搖????眼???孩????幾歲??未曾讀?幾本書????釋懷??
“??學吧?”?姑??正?臉疑惑望??己??先參?笑???
“?啊??學?????夥伴????玩兒????讀書認字?奶奶?????用讀書才?變成?厲害???”參兒從??坐???黑豆豆?眼睛?眨?眨泛?光????姑?
?姑把?本書?收??重新裝回參兒?兜???放進?參兒臥室書桌?抽屜??隨?從?己?屋?衣櫃?取???件灰色?長款呢??衣穿??拎???包走?樓??
“走??姑帶????周圍逛逛?買件新衣服穿?哦????姑???請?吃魚香肉絲????走?找?家餐館?吃魚香肉絲?”
參兒??眼???城市?打扮??姑?莫名??陣崇拜感襲?全??感覺?己??姑太瀟灑太?範兒?跟??姑?種莫名?踏實感和安全感??姑依舊?定?閑???拎包??拉?參兒便?別墅?
?根根城市綻放?霓虹燈?將城市?編織??彩斑斕?路??行???打扮?新潮??尚?完全?同於村??????從餐廳?窗外???????吃飯?男男女女?搖曳?酒杯?和洋溢?臉??笑容?處處彰顯???????熱愛??村???黎明??黑暗?長???遠?????兒?光於暗?相互交錯??點??衝突?反倒相處??比和諧??再聽?破口?罵和??咧咧?嘲諷、吹牛?取?代???禮貌?謝謝和微笑?
“??家????招牌?‘胖鯉魚’?聽?????趣?吧??姑老??邊兒吃飯??姑跟?講???家?魚香肉絲?做??叫?絕?”?姑指??館?招牌?眼睛?亮?亮??拉?參兒?往店?走?
“??覺??兒?魚香肉絲?定??吃?胖鯉魚??兒?魚?定又肥又美?肉絲?定?棒?”參兒抓?桌???次性筷?抬?應和??姑?眉毛??挑?挑??
?姑撲哧?聲差點把剛喝進??茶水噴???咳?兩聲??“?姑跟??啊??魚香肉絲????魚做??哎?算?算????兒吃???知???哈哈哈哈……”
“??魚做???什?叫魚香肉絲????騙?嗎?”參兒?聲嘟囔??聲??再講話?
“老板??份兒魚香肉絲?兩碗兒米飯?再??碟花?米?”?姑抬?向店??胖老板招呼點菜?
???兒?功夫?胖老板端???托盤?把飯菜?送??餐桌???
“您慧眼?本店魚香肉絲?……”
胖老板把飯菜放?桌??比劃?雙?給?姑和參兒誇??菜怎?樣??吃??話??半兒?當??向參兒??候?突?語塞???約足足???十秒鍾左右才回????繼續??“甚?……甚?……”
?完?胖老板?回櫃台?慌慌張張?撩??廚?門簾兒?走?進??
參兒?奇????眼???談吐怪異?老板?片刻????????顧???始?儀式感?品嚐魚香肉絲?
吃?吃???姑瞥見??旁放??報紙?像?老板今?買????抬?寫?醒目?幾??字?“?夜???燒光??村?婆離奇失蹤?”