第33章 一封家書

  ?工資????楊籽突?明???所謂?保安隊長?“福利待遇”??僅僅?體???和辦公室?員?樣?作息??；??月4??休息製度；單??主管房；指揮十幾???權??

  工資?體??才?最???處?

  保安隊長?工資??保安員雙倍?900塊錢?

  “難怪李?勇苦苦相爭?原????回事?”


  財務把楊籽原先???保安員?工資??當成?保安隊長??份計算?給予?補??

  ?此?楊籽?專門詢問?財務?

  “???算錯??”


  “?錯????馮?簽批?讓?樣結算??”


  領?工資?楊籽?打?傳呼給老鄉馬傑?留言讓?複機?告訴?己??銀行卡號；?把借??100塊錢?給??

  馬傑?快複?Cαll?告訴楊籽??錢?事?急；改??專門???望楊籽???候再?給??

  楊籽??阿美????停車位站??楊籽???找她??問她買皮鞋?錢??少?楊籽??錢給阿美?

  阿美聽?楊籽??意??掩嘴笑????用?指?楊籽額??戳??????

  “?樣兒??送??雙鞋?行嗎?”


  “???願意????所??衣物?全包?”


  “?楊?????套裙???嗎?”


  “???”


  “其實?啥??穿更??????哪???給??????”


  ……


  楊籽陪?李?弟、黃毛?傍晚??候?鎮??街逛????買?幾本文學雜誌???信封、信紙、郵票回??

  工廠附近碰??劉虎、黃河?楊籽?請???吃炒田螺?喝啤酒?其?楊籽?給??弟10塊錢?讓她??把唱歌?癮?

  回?房??衝完涼?洗?衣服??楊籽??始寫信?

  楊籽先寫信給??姐?

  ??楊籽?第?封家書?

  初?東莞??楊籽給?姐?單位打?電話?告訴她?己安全??東莞?朋友????接?

  ????記?電話號碼?通訊錄?本?遺失??楊籽?再??給家?聯係??

  給?姐?信?短?楊籽??告訴?姐?朋友幫介紹?工作????己??活??安逸??用擔??己?

  楊籽?求?姐?代?己向父親問?；並把另?封信轉交給張燕?

  楊籽?始寫第?封信?

  燕??

  ???淩晨?點鍾?夜深?靜??刻??倍感孤獨??種孤獨?加????思念?使?久久難?入睡?今夜注定????眠?夜??

  燕??此?此刻???定酣?入夢?吧?夢????遇見????傻瓜楊籽?

  ???楊籽?隔窗?望??靜靜?星空?仿佛????甜美?笑臉?

  燕??又??北雁南飛??節?日?猶??駒?隙?轉眼???廣東???月?餘??盼??封信??定?象????樣?望眼欲穿吧?

  幾?月???給?寄??言片語??相信???怪??因??更加知????最懂??????

  雖?????內?責罵???情和?狠???相比????愛????懂???定?和??樣??夠承受?短暫?相思?苦?

  ???每每提筆給?寫信??候?忽?又???知該寄向何處?

  ??沉迷於熱戀????至於????記住?老家??址?寄給?姑姑?抑或寄給??姐轉交??知??處於當??居?定所??處安?立命?境況?????性?????給她?聯絡??

  ????候??????“?候”居?遲???半年?

  燕???果???當?遠赴廣東??少?更事?衝動?舉?或者象?支持???樣?“權當??遠門散散?”；???切?變?；致使????浪跡?東莞?街?????存??處求職?屢屢碰壁???又????辦???假?《退伍證》；同?又遇??貴??才?????安穩工作?並且升?職?當?保安隊長?

  當????須再?此擔??????經曆??成??往雲煙??留????讓?受益終??寶貴經驗?

  燕???原本????己?閱曆頗豐?見?識廣????突飛猛進、高速?展?廣東?才????己????進城?鄉巴佬?

  所?????再奢望和??“纏纏綿綿闖?涯?從???並肩?彩霞????兒???沙……”?

  ??趙薇?糊弄鬼?欺騙?真正??擔當?愛情?

  ??浪漫?演繹????實?活?

  燕????實習單位找?????或者?舅爺???給?提?定??正式單位?

  ????論?何????再??跟???闖蕩????柔弱?性格?家鄉??份安穩工作?才?最適合???

  廣東更?適合??

  ???知?它?底???適合??

  和??穿?工衣?機器?似??青春年少?背井離鄉?女孩?樣；???茫??何?何從????又???己?規劃????目標?向感?目??種打工?活?????理?抱負?

  ?????金錢?強烈追求?欲望?

  ?剩??怕辜負????愛???讓?跟???幸福平穩日??

  ??又???極其模糊?概念?

  燕??每當????女工?空洞落寂?眼睛???????常掛?嘴角?甜美笑容?

  知?嗎??數?夜晚??從攬?入懷?夢?醒????因??????再??法入睡?

  燕????????實習???陪??嗎??讓?堂弟護送????辦?《邊防證》??????深圳???海?

  ????經實習???????關係???再堅持幾?月??年底?回家???再商討???留?家鄉???繼續????嗎?

  ??幾????秋節??燕??????????邊??秋節???知?怎??；廣東?月餅?吃?????甜?

  燕??????公司?電話??直接拔分機???桌??見信??先給?打電話??迫?及待??聽聽?甜美?聲音?

  當??最???午、晚?打??占用?班資源?

  情未盡?字難停?再長?篇章??難?表述????思念?情?

  致此?

  見字速回電話?

  ?愛?、愛??楊籽?

  2000年9月6日夜

  於東莞