第十二章 怨天尤人自哀傷 反躬求省己逍遙

  ?命?於每???????僅僅??次???命運卻?穆懿????忤逆乾坤?玩笑?穆懿覺??點???笑??恨?罵?詛咒諸??佛；命運給??最少?千?百?十?萬年??光??卻用?渾渾噩噩?誦經念佛?直??清??知??因?果?逆流?光??死?穿?命運?舛??死未卜?

  ???記載??概??百?十??元?????百?十??元???穆懿?部分???????意識??剛?始?知?覺?數年?接?渾渾噩噩?數年?????沉浸?“回憶”?????“??世”??己虔誠?祈禱請願?最?才驚醒?幡?醒悟?

  ?????長?????穆懿??回憶???往?短短??十年?紅塵記憶??回憶??細?事?巨細????備??遍?兩遍??百遍??千遍??萬遍………??因???原因????己?十年??命印記特別?深刻???印入腦海深處、刻?骨???記憶?入骨?分?纖毫畢??

  驚回?夢?夢?欲歸歸???

  ??刻?穆懿??????場夢??算??場長長?夢?罷???回??回???溫暖?家?回?父母??邊?回???霧霾漫???代??怨?己?怨?己糊塗?怨?己癡傻?怨?己?百?萬年????家???念?父母親?????次擔憂?家??痛苦?

  “?什?????什??????什??定???”穆懿???法接受?實??咆哮????聲；?痛苦????淚；?歇斯底?????用?“掌管命運??啊???問????打??盹?請?再打?盹?放?回??求??…………”


  “啊?世?再難找?像??樣?流浪漢??離家?走?卻跨越?空；再??像??樣孤苦伶仃?孱弱?憐?”


  “??底?造?什?孽啊?老?????樣???”


  “放??吧?放?回?啊……”


  “爸媽?兒??孝??????????候?花?????葉落??院??石榴??????結???果??”


  “?千?百?十?萬年????兒???長???????……”


  “?????????管?久????定?等??等?啊?”


  穆懿語?倫次??????滴血??????????；??眼?流淚?????????眼???????????????情沮喪；????失?落魄?最直觀??表?????截丈許長?金色枯藤?周?散???股灰敗??息?

  ??懂??痛???知??苦?更??關???悲?怨?尤??哀傷???情沮喪??精打采?失?落魄?

  “?該怎?辦啊???什?辦法?洪荒世界??法???遲早??死??讓?經曆???幹啥???點??覺?精彩?何??斧劈死??”


  “??屍體??????爸爸媽媽?定?經知????死?消息???肯定?傷?吧???????孝??逆??啊?逆????逆??”


  “?千?百?十?萬年啊??怎?今?才??啊??怎????才????父母??早幹啥???何惜百死?百死莫贖?”


  “?行???定?活???管?久??管?難????活??????什??木公??什??即使??截枯藤???活??千?百?十?萬年??木公???活?久?東王公???活?久????繼續活??”

  “既?給??次機????什??木公???注定??死?????什?辦法?死????死??次???死???輪回???投胎???定?????代?????爸爸媽媽?姐姐?即使??遠遠????即使????眼??眼?罷??願足矣?”


  “?什?辦法???死???辦法??定?辦法???定?”穆懿陷入?沉思???終於忘記?痛苦?悲傷???始???死???活???辦法?????死?理由???活???動??

  ??始回憶“木公”????????????腦海??翻閱??關“木公”?切信息????枯藤本???????話故事?????《山海經》???切關於“木公““東王公”?信息???條??放????始動用?己??碩士研究??記憶???思考???歸納???徹底?分析“木公”????

  “東華至真??化??木公焉?木公?於碧海???蒼靈?墟；??陽和???理於東??亦號曰王公焉?”


  “東荒山???石室?東王公居焉?長?丈???皓???形鳥??虎尾?載?黑熊?左右顧望?”


  “??混?分???歸???善成????”


  “挺質太玄?毓?玄奧?於東?溟溟???分??醇精???形成?與西王母共理???育養??、陶鈞萬物?凡??、??、?界、十??男?登仙??者悉所掌焉?”


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  穆懿?條條??步步?終於理清思路?木公?死?歸根結底?源於“男?登仙??者悉所掌焉?號‘東王公’”所致?

  “??己?管理男仙??登東王公位??????用死??”


  穆懿?像??己找???條?路??管洪荒諸事???求????逍遙????逃災避難?趨吉避凶??定??活?父母所?????代?

  “功德???功德?護?符?功德加??誰??敢輕易滅殺?己?”穆懿又??己?加???保護傘?積德行善?

  反躬求省己逍遙?????求長???盼逍遙?

  從???角度??待世界?世界?充滿?未知??奇；從???角度??待世界?世界?充斥?未??黑暗；從未??角度??待世界?世界?滿盈??盡?滄桑?

  穆懿從未??角度??待目????洪荒?世界???認?給?己找???條長?逍遙?路?趨吉避凶?功德加??萬法?侵??死?滅?

  穆懿越?越?思路??完善?己??法??存??積德行善?苦修行?獨善其??求長????逍遙?

  “?定????定????”穆懿?停???安慰??

  ???因果循環?報應?爽??法???“?命由??由?”和“命由?定”從???宿敵?

  ?穆懿總算從悲哀痛苦?醒轉??始變?意?????截丈許?枯藤?????絲???